Playing with fire

Hey guys, just wanted you all to know that I'm not welcomed to hang at section 13 anymore ; or anywhere else to be exact.It was all because of some stupid *and ugly person who was too sensitive and thinks that I didn't have the right to give her advice.You're messing with the wrong person bitch.Be ready for a painful comeback.You just wait.Btw,this is her Facebook page.And I know , she's one ugly piece of shit.

facebook.com/sillydidy

New Year Resolution

2011 came like a blow to my ego.I mean, generally I would say that 2010 was definitely a challenge to me ; emotionally and physically.As I have should realized earlier that I was wasting time on my crush , Faiz.

I mean, again and again I have told him that playing with peoples feelings? -not cool.But he fails to grasp this advice.I can't say that he's stupid 'cause he's really smart.So I think he just has trust issues. -,-

And almost ALWAYS , I will always say at least something about him , even if that post didn't have ANYTHING to do with him. *I have issues too I guess.

He recently said that he appreciates my presence but due to the "death" of one his friends back in Taiping , he needs time on his own.But puhhhh-leaaaaseeeeee.Since when he speaks truthfully to me? One word , BULLCRAP.

I've read you're blog (don't know why I did it) and I knew if it wasn't about you're scandals,it would be about him.You're "knight in shining armor".The one who gives his everything to you and made you feel special.I know I've failed in doing so,but who cares right?In the end,no matter how noble you are,no matter how faithful you are, and no matter how honest you are,it ALL DEPENDS ON YOUR FUCKING LOOKS.So I say , fuck that.I have wasted 3 years of MY life for this shit? FUCK YOU MAN , FUCK YOU.

You should know that I'm crying while I'm typing this.There was never ever any doubt in my love for you.But I guess you took that for granted too.You are trash.I regret the day I met you.

So fuck you , and all you're friends.I'm throwing out ALL of you're shit from my life.Goodbye motherfucker.

About ciggarettes and heartbreaks

It has been a while since I've posted any shit (a month to be exact).But all was because I haven't found the time to lay it out on my blog.I miss my blog,like seriously. *I once said that it was a place for me to pour my heart out.

Well now,I've gained new friends.Lost some.And some consider me a nuisance? Bahh,to hell with that.A lot of my friends left me because it seems that I didn't know that hanging out with other people is wrong for some reason? One word : Immature.

Since I know that the universe works in strange ways, I can predict that good stuff will happen to me eventually.All those feelings of being left alone doesn't affect me anymore.It's like I've grown immune to sadness.All I know now is to feel only happiness.

And I came to a realization that crushes and scandals come and go like seasons.I think thats how the cycle work I guess.My life seems to look like an adventure now.Wouldn't want it any other way.Just wished I had more time to talk about whats been happening.Got to go.Will write soon :)

Homosexual Concept.

So I yesterday I just got back from Malacca with some friends from the UiTM campus that was in Malacca.Since I didn't have any classes and I had a LOT of time to spare, I just followed them.And mann,IT WAS AWESOME! ;D

We arrived at about 2 p.m. I guess, and went straight to the campus' study hall.It's much BIGGER than mine in Shah Alam.And the students there looked stern and studied all the time.I mean,they look like theyve been studying all the time. 0.o

Before breaking fast, we went to Dataran Pahlawan and just layed on the field and took some pictures.I dunno what made it fun,but I seriously forgot about all of my problems and just had fun. :D

After we ate I saw this huge pole that was called the 'Tamingsari'.It was like this tower that had this spinning platform and it spins round-and-round from top to bottom.So people would see all of Malacca and its glory. :D

Before sahur,we were already on our way back Shah Alam. *after stopping by the Malacca's Uptown. ;)

The trip was great and I hope I can go there again :)

*btw,I'm back to being gay.HAHA

Sparks Flying ;)

Being in a relationship with a girl is something I RARELY go through.But when I do,it feels like magic.

My friends once said to me that "Being in love with a girl is definately DIFFERENT than being in love with a guy".At that moment,I just felt like they were just babbling some crap about girls and stuff.

But let me tell you,the feeling is like WAYYYYY different.Almost cosmic I think? o.0

Strange thing is,when I tell people that I like girls now,the guys suddenly are attracted to me.I mean, what-the-fuck is that man? -,-

Some of my friends are starting to tell me that "She's not your type" or "She's not that good".But I say, LIKE I FREAKIN' CARE Y'ALL.haha *what is that supposed to be? :p

The next post is going to be about her.Right now I'm too happy and I might babble a lot like I'm doing now and I'm afraid it would be LONG and BORING.So I'm just going to put up her picture.Just to thicken the suspense :)

Her name starts with an 'S' :)

Swift-chopping

Today has been a good actually for me.When the clock struck 12,my friends suddenly sang the birthday song.Seriously at first,I didn't have a clue as to whose birthday it was.Then I saw my friend , Jebat being all blushy and stuff.HAHA.Didn't even crossed my mind dude.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEBAT RAZALI.ALL THE BEST FOR YOU :)

Just finished playing COD with the guys and tonight not feeling good.I think I'm a little off today -,-

Guess what?I'm in love with Matt from youtube.But he often calls himself, swiftkaratechop.Dayym that's a cool name :o

He is SOOOOO energetic and hyper for no reason and that makes ME hyper for no reason.I dunno.His craziness kinda rubbed off on me :)

I think I'll take up vlogging as a new hobby.Gonna try my luck tomorrow and see how I look in video.If I'm ugly,then I won't be posting it -__-"

Btw,saw Faiz just now at Baraa.He was with his friends,but I sorta had this tiny bit of jealousy seeing him with those people.Pffft.Just let it be.

Oh yeahhh,I sorta think I got to have a catchy-catchphrase to go with my vlog.I'll need help with this.I'm not that "catch-phrase-creator-kind-of-type".

So see you guys soon in my vlog -- hopefully :D

Teenage Dreams :)

I've been listening to Katy Perry's current single which is "Teenage Dream" and I must say it makes me happy whenever I catch it playing anywhere.Sometimes I even dance (which is kinda weird) in public and even though people laugh at me (who doesn't?), I still dance on.I dunno.That kind of songs makes me happy for no reason.

Even though my love life is kinda on hold at the moment,it makes me think about my future.I'm currently at a crossroad between a girl and a boy that I love so much.But I dunno which one that I should choose.I know that most people would want me to go straight.(DUH!)

The girl's name is Hanan.I knoww.It sounds like its a boy's name.But I have long looked over those petty things since I've known her.She makes me feel like I'm worth something.Even when I don't feel like I'm worth anything.

So now it seems that I have reached a point where I am forced to make a decision.Girl or boy?Gay or staright?hmmmm.So many questions pop into my head right now and I'm getting more and more confused.Let me just take my time on this and I'll update anything that happens :)